and theeeeennnn one more unnecessary post again. hahaha..
rainy saturday night. nothing feels special.
just be reminded of words, "dont depend on anybody."
and stop doing anything for someone.

i never felt this sucks feeling again. haha.. missing someone who touches my head so gently, then tell me it's gonna be ok. huuufft i think i was in my limitation now.....
some hugs might be nice right now. a shoulder.. damn :'("
really..... for along time i never depended myself on anyone. i thought it would have been no one worth to see my sadness. just afraid they would hate me for being weak, or being a burden. everyone gets problems, i dont wanna burden them by sharing mine. and if they have known how i was really inside.. would they stay the same?? :"(
kinda complicated.... just sometimes i think i should make space. so i dont depend on anybody.
but..... what if i just cry out without telling anything? :'(
i need to lay on for just a lil while to let these fuckin burdens away.. can i? i'm so sick....

listening to Avril Lavigne's song : I'M WITH YOU.
what a perfect song to describe my condition now..