Many girls want their marriage to be glamour, expensive, in big buildings, wearing expensive wedding dress, having a rich husband, recording their marriage with pride.

While my friend day by day showed me marriage's video, expensive and glamour, she told me excitedly that she wanted a marriage like that, and i was sitting there didn't feel much interest.

I just want simple marriage that lasts forever and my first marriage be my only marriage.

I don't need many luxury things, i just need love that lasts forever, caring for my children, a husband who has a good responsibility, a real commitment. That's all. I don't look for what world is always looking for.

I don't need to be very rich, as long as my family can be so in peace, where my children can get their edication well, where my children can be saying, "this is my home.". I don't ask too much. There's my life goal. I don't ask for travelling the world with my family, no.. A lil picnic in town is good for me, at least my family can be together, can laugh and feel the joys and happiness.

I'm as a woman also dreaming about my wedding dress, my marriage, but i just want a simple happiness called family.

Where i and my husband won't ever change, take care for that family together, build our happiness from the bottom, when he can't wait to see my baby, when he comes home with smile and my children will yell, "dad, you're home. I miss you.", when he feels so tired, but still spend a lil time to play with them.

I spend my lifetime waiting for it... When someone can prove me that NOT all marriage can be broken.

NOT all husband will cheat. NOT all promises are bullshit.

Cause i do still believe..... I can find my own happy lil family. 😊 With the right one.

I remember when i was 5, when i was school at my catholic school, there was a Holy Mary figure in the small cave. That place was made for praying with really nice decorations, so peaceful. In the morning, many peoples prayed at there.

While waiting my dad pick me up, when school was so quite, no one's around, i picked some lil flowers and brought them to Holy Mary figure.

I saw many flowers around it, beautiful flowers, maybe they're from the prayers that had prayed at there.

So i put my lil flowers at there, and i prayed just for this lil thing, "Holy Mary mother of Jesus, i knew my life wasn't perfect, i knew i couldn't be like my friends, i knew my mom and dad always fought, i was often alone, my dad usually picked my up late, my mom was an anger, but i believed, there would be still happiness that You would give for me. I just wanted my family back and be nice, i wanted peaceful family. In Jesus name, i prayed. Amen."

Everytime i was there praying alone, i said the same prayer.

Cause i didn't have anything to ask for. I didn't ask for bicycle and new bag while my friends owned those things. From the deepest my heart, honestly what i said in front of Holy Mary figure was a true wish.

A lil prayer from a lil kid, but i knew.... She listened to my prayer. Although, i couldn't bring some beautiful flowers like roses, cause i didn't have much money to buy it, i believed She heard my tears that i couldn't even cry in front of anyone, including my parents. :')"