I'm bored of meeting the different persons with the same ending story. They're all always ended up with the same kind of the story. 😒 and that happens to me all over & over again. I'm just like, "pffttt... Funny as always."

Maybe it feels interesting at the first meet, at the start. But, it's always feeling the same when it's close to end. Different ways, different matter, different persons, just the same shit happens to me AGAIN.

Maybe it's better not to know things sometimes.

I've tried to strengthen myself from the bullshit, but how could i pretend it was all NOTHING, when it was all supposed to be thing i wanted to happen??? The matter was.... No one ever really meant what they've said. Mistakes are repeating. And i'm the one who always feel stupid cause i have to face the same condition again, until i'm getting bored & sick here of insecurity. I'm never used to this, even after it happened, it's still hurt...

It's like no matter where i step my feet on the ground, and walk on the different way, it's always ended up with the same place. And then i'll be tired of trying the new way.. 😞