I'll never understand why "goodbyes" have to exist. Like why i have to say goodbye to someone that i want them to stay forever in my life, selfish right?
But it's strange, like a life cycle that has time to stop.
My granda is the MAN that i admire the most! He is kind, faithful husband, and loveable, he's loyal and patient too. He's a reflection of perfect husband nowadays.
He had been taking care of me since i was a little. He had a shop, i always did such as bad things there, like ruffled the wares and many things. I was naughty almost all the time, he never got really angry at me.
1 thing i still remember about him and my childhood is the time when i ehmmmm... was eating chicken porridge with my playmates that as my neighbor too. So that time there was a weird habit about eating porridge by small spoon. *Small spoon was a rare item that time. Pffftt* ╮(╯3╰)╭ hahaha.. my playmates both had small spoon, and i didn't. Mine was a big one, so i cried over my grandpa, whined for the small one, but he didn't have that, he only had the medium one. But when i went out to eat together with my playmates, they abused me. Hahahaha.. so i cried louder and insisted my grandpa to give me that, he was angry and pulled my hand to get home. I was crying, and that's annoying. He yelled at me and sat beside me in dining room, he accompanied me to eat. He said that no matter what size the spoon is, as long as i could eat, that's what really matter anyway and that's all he got for me, the best from him. ~T_T~
Oh my....
That's my favorite part of my childhood with him, he taught me something important that i should do now in my life. "BE GRATEFUL " *^▁^*
*And while remembering it, i realized that my spoon that day was the good one.*

But now he's sick, lying weakly on bed. He's still the best man I've ever had in my life.... and u know what, sadly growing up sometimes takes me busy to think what others see, i want this, i want that, i want what anyone else has, but i never be gratefully accepting the ones i got. I assume mine is the bad one, but what i have now is a gift, the best gift from beloved peoples around me. They support me until i get this far. But i never feel enough. ;((